I'm sorry...

Dear Friends,

The other day I meant to be light hearted when I said so what's up ...you don't want to be interviewed...and so on ...I hurt some feelings of some wonderful loving friends...I didn't mean to do that...I rarely use humor this way and now I know why...it's so easy to take out of context...I'm sooooooooooooooo sorry for any harm I've caused...I only have deep love and appreciation for all you have done for me and my words hurt a few of you...please forgive me...I will do better to check my intention and meaning behind my words and try to not cause harm...for those of you whom this has hurt ...please remember my heart and know I have just made a mistake...if you need to talk to me about it...contact me...I love you...

elephant love

As you can see...Larry Marshall took this photo and Sue shared it with me knowing how much I love elephants...AMAZING!!! Thank you for the happiness!!!!

Response to question about food for bowel obstruction

I lost the contact info regarding a question regarding ideas for food intake that allows the possibility of navigating around a bowel obstruction...this answer is very difficult...I have had several bowel obstructions and a few surgeries were necessary to correct them...this last one I had/have ...is a constant concern...

First step: when possible and in my control ...all food was and is organic ...and consciously eaten and purchased...

clear liquids only and only small quantities at a time...I sometimes would be here for a week or more...in the hospital it was IV fluids only

Second Step:

When the obstruction seems better...how would you know??? It takes the xrays and the intuition that comes from having them to know for sure...

You can add thicker liquids and soft foods that are easily digestible...I was in this phase for several weeks...because I was threatened to have a nutritional bag as an IV nutritional replacement due to malnutrition and scary weight loss...I was highly motivated to figure this out...keep in mind I was moments from surgery so this was not taken lightly...every bite or swallow was an unknown...

I blended ...
avocados...raw sprouted rice protein...blueberries...bananas...pears...nut butters and seed butters...potatoes...cooked and then blended...hummus ...coconut based anything ...helped a lot!!! Papayas...watermelon...cantaloupe...anything that would soften and give me calories and nutrition...I was recently here for about one month

I then gradually added other foods when I sensed I could...I even ate organic potato chips dipped in mashed avocado or nut butters ...yum...can't keep doing that but really fun...

I have now gained ...at least it feels like about 5 lbs back which was my goal so I have to level off so much fat and high caloric intakes...I'll be phasing back into my juicing and some cooked food but less fat and just as nutritious...I hope I weigh around 105 or more I hope...scary skinny is not good ...healthy thin is good...I'm getting there again...

I hope this helps the person with the friend who has this challenge...I'm so happy I did this without another surgery or the IV nutrition ...a day ...a moment at a time...

Love and healing to you...thanks for your question...

would you like to be interviewed??

so much love that comes my way and only one or two of you agreed to be interviewed???What's up with that...when I love someone I can't wait to brag about that love...

anyway..met with a wonderful reporter today ...freelances for coast news and other papers as well...she would love your feedback...must be now!!!

Please contact me if you want to share the love...the article will be published next week but must be completed this week...you have something to share...do it now...contact me...

elephant love flowing

still sharing MOM joy

Still sharing from the Easter sunday photo shoot...compliments of my friend and brilliant photographer Barbara...now living in OREGON...miss you Barbara...

The last few days have been full of appreciation for the small little steps and the moments of energy ...so much I want to do ...honoring my energy...moments of energy and then rest....

I think I've gained a few pounds back...my  strategy is working...yeah!!! Almost ready to go back on the veggie juices ...it has been so much fun eating organic potato chips with avocado and nut butters...soon to be a memory as I don't want to eat like that unless I have to...I was 100 lbs...maybe I'm at 105???? I hope so!!!

So much love showing up with amazing food deliveries and water for chocolate infusions of love and heart felt emotions...if you haven't seen that movie from years ago...it is a must see...

I would like to exercise a bit but I'm still so weak... a little bit at a time...next week is filled with blood tests...Dr Bahahdor visit ( lucky me) and starting cycle 2 of chemo next Friday...my biopsy results should be in by then so I may be on a new chemo regimen ...

I can feel myself teaching again soon as I feel the energy of the treatment ...at least once per month would be great if not more...we can all come together to celebrate movement and life force...

Small steps...BIG appreciation!!!!

Love to all....

What a day!!!!

I thought yesterday was a huge marker of improvement...but today...wow!!!

Yesterday ...I had this feeling like maybe..just maybe I could drive in my neighborhood and loosen up some more cob webs...it worked...I was shaky and slow but I did it!!

So...today...I was on my way to visit my son at a 1/2 marker between my house and his and at the last minute he couldn't make it...then my friend who owns De La Sole Reflexology in Del Mar had called and invited me for a soothing healing foot love fest and I drove there and cuddled up with her and had the best time!!!

Then...I went and got my car washed...and then...I shopped at Jimbos by myself and then I came home...I was very weak and tired but I'm feeling awesome now...

I have been in this place many times before...not able to function too well and then one day...more and more improvement...WOW!!!

Still in the moment...taking it all in...staying present for all experiences...even the one's that suck big time...today I celebrate the special moments of coming back with the vibrancy that I know so well...

Sharing yet another photo of my son and I ...Easter Sunday...love to all!!!