day 8 in Mexico Monday

I went to Yoga this morning...it was quite gentle...just the right pace for me...very different and yet not...heart felt and warm and friendly from each woman...The teacher's name is Javier and he does not look like a yoga teacher and yet ...it doesn't matter...obesity is a huge issue here...even for yoga teachers...I'm going to return on Wed and Fri...it's only a few minutes from the clinic...it's just right...the room is very dated and very moldy...many places are moldy here....at the beach and also lack of building care and maintenance...it makes me appreciate home so much more...

I had my first vaccine this morning ...I collected urine for several days and it's sent away to a lab to make an antigen/anitbody against cancer using my body's own information...this is being done also at Andersons Cancer Hospital in Texas...many people get well from just that treatment...open mind..open heart...allow healing to come ...I'm quite sore from the shot...my husband will have to give me the shots at home...unless one of you has experience giving shots and can come to see me once per week ...let me know..I can't give my own shot in my butt...too difficult and too queasy...I'm  feeling very sore in my butt and thigh and leg and fluish feeling...they say it can last a day ...some people don't feel anything...I'm going to go to sleep early...lots of wonderful things going in and going out...I've lost weight again...I had just gained 6 lbs from before and now losing again...eating very well and have a great appetite but still losing...not forever...I'm at an almost good weight for me...Ok...sending so much love and so much peace to everyone on this special day...I hear Soul of Yoga opened their new space today...it's beautiful...please go visit them soon ...Take care and talk to you tomorrow...

Wonderful day

I was able to walk a lot today...I also found a health food store close to the clinic ...a healthy restuarant which I won't need...it reminds me of the early health food stores...very dated and very limited...there was confusion here at the clinic kitchen about walnuts being the same as pecans...I was able to bring back healthy walnuts...and then I stumbled upon a yoga studio below the store. I'm going to check it out tomorrow morning before my treatments start...I'll let you know how it goes...I'm so excited to find it...also very dated looking and old and I hope wonderful...we'll see...I need to move more than walking...I don't have my sticky mat and I don't want to lie down on the hotel carpet...my towel isn't enough...love to everyone...

wise words from Dali Lama

Dalai Lama As human beings, we are all the same, there is no need to build some kind of artificial barrier between us. With this attitude, there is nothing to hide, and no need to say things in a way that is not straightforward. So this gives me a kind of space in my mind, with the result that I do not have to be suspicious of others all the time. And this really gives me inner satisfaction, and inner peace.

Day 7 in Mexico...Saturday

What a day...

I had treatments done very early...back to back to back to back without any time in between...then I went with the driver Jesus and a patient and his daughter into downtown Tijuana/ Revolution main tourist area...I had been there before ...many many years ago...I didn't go to go there...I went for a change of scenery...the company was wonderful...Richard has brain cancer and went for an experimental surgery that was supposed to be 100% no big deal and he is now paralyzed...so he has brain cancer and is paralyzed...I am so lucky to be given what I've been given....the challenges we face can always intensify...he is a very positive person ...his daughter 27 years old is here with him as a kind and loving caregiver....daily... I witness a level of love and kindness that makes me only hope I can show up at least a 10th in that way...it's been amazing to be around them...

Jesus is a father and grandfather and lives fairly close to the clinic in Playa Tijuana...he picked me up last Sunday and escorted me across the border...his job is many things...one of them ...is picking patients up and taking them wherever and whenever they want and need to go...his other jobs are many ...he not only shows up to do his job well...he is the kindest man I have ever met...today was the most incredible opportunity ...it wasn't about going to Revolution Ave in Tijuana which was not appealing to me ...today was about my opportunity to witness pure patience...pure compassion...pure kindness...he helped Richard in his wheelchair...when Richard needed to go to the bathroom...Jesus helped him in the kindest way...when Richard missed the bathroom and wet himself...Jesus cared for him...when Richard had to pee again in a cup on the street...Jesus said it's ok Richard...if you shut your eyes no one will be able to see you...when Richard showed sad eyes...Jesus hugged him and patted him tenderly...I wept several times today...I wept because I feel so lucky to witness true tenderness...compassion...kindness and love...I am forever changed by being here...I not only came to the right place for my healing...I came to the only place...if love and kindness heals...I am healed...

I do Tonglen meditation daily for the injured dogs who howl on the street every night and day...whose sad eyes make me weep for the lack of kindness in the world...I weep for these animals that have no food ...no love...no caring...I don't know what to do with this...so I do Tonglen ...I do Tonglen for the animals
(dogs) I do Tonglen for the people who abandon these animals... every night I hear them screaming for food...screaming from the painful wounds left infected and oozing ...what an experience I'm having...For those of you who don't know what Tonglen is ...it's basically a loving kindness wish.. a breathing in the texture of pain and suffering no matter what it is and breathing out it's solution...light...etc...and it's so much more...wishing for all beings...including animals and every creature to have happiness...

Another touching moment was when we were walking down the streets of Tijuana...tiring of all of the desperate pleas to come into my store...please please senora I won't rip you off as much as the next guy...hee hee ...he really said this and then this warm young man who also has a store asked me where I was from and he said to me...when you go back home...tell them we are good and kind here...that it's safe here...tell them ok??? Tell them that they can come back...ok ...will you do this? I said yes...and I wept again...

What a day...

love to all

Day 6 in Mexico...Friday

No new news ...got done with treatments once again early and got back to my room before 7 pm...amazing....hopefully will rest well tonight...it can be a bit noisy...so many sick dogs...so many barking dogs...I didn't sleep all that well last night because of them...I'm right next to the bull fighting ring and it should be a wild few days coming up...hopefully ...I'll get some rest...sending much love to all...

Day 5 in Mexico

Another great day...all is well...not much different info ...same schedule...walked more this morning...made me feel better...more info from tests came back...could be worse but lots to deal with...still hopeful ...love to all...

A friend just sent this poem

One song can spark a moment
One flower can wake a dream
One tree can start a forest
One bird can herald spring
One smile begins a friendship
One handclasp lifts a soul
One star can guide a ship
One thought can frame a goal
One vote can change a nation
One sunbeam lights a room
One candle wipes out darkness
One laugh will conquer gloom
One step must start each journey
One word must start each prayer
One hope will raise our spirits
One touch can show you care
One voice can speak with wisdom
One heart can know what’s true
One life can make a difference
One person just like you.