Changing

Hi everybody, using a friend to converse with you today ...I am just too fatigued to do it on my own.  I didn't want you to get worried so here we are.  I am having a hard time with deciding whether to say what sounds better or say what is true.  After a long pause ...a painful pause ... I have decided to say what is true.  My body is slowing way down.  Although my vital signs are still strong, it doesn't feel that way.  In fact, it is very difficult to have someone else write this letter.  I know so many people want to come see me ...it is just extremely difficult at this time. Although I may not be able to respond, I am reading texts and e-mails.

Always feeling love.
Summer

poz a balls sold

poz o balls sold...thank you

Lots of Love to everyone

I'm having symptoms that need some more love...please continue to do what you do best...

Thank you for everything ...always...as Pema says...keep leaning into it...lean into it with me...

Every 5 min is a new view...every moment I appreciate more and more!!!

I love you,
Summer

For SAle

BRAND NEW!!!!!

Poz a Ball for Pilates or Yoga...soft blow up balls RED
24 TOTAL $10 per ball / discount available if purchased as complete set $5 per ball / $120

Soft Weighted Balls by Sissel 3lb BLUE 22 TOTAL
$11 each or discounted if purchased as complete set
Discount is $6 per ball as set  $132

starting off with good spirits

Much love to every one...feeling the love...

focusing on the love...


anyone who would appreciate pilates training manuals and pilates work books..please contact me...I have advanced level of training workbooks....

I was able to sell the pilates equipment but still have bands and balls and straps and blocks and such...let me know!!!

A better day

feeling stronger today...used some O2  and it helped I think...when you see me I'm much thinner but my heart and spirit are strong...we can cry and laugh together about what ever comes us for us...I love you and can't wait to visit when our schedules unite...keep trying to connect with me...if I can't don't give up...a week goes by so fast when I have appts and it's hard to fit visitors in sometimes....it's not personal...love you so much...

day by day

I've had some heavy nauseated days...feeling a little better today...please send love...I love you all so much...thank you for all that you do for me!!!

Connecting

Although it's a challenge day to day, I am making small improvements.  My greatest concern is ongoing nausea.  Through hospice and my doctor, we are trying to come up with the right strategy.  The decision to have chemo this week is still uncertain due to current symptoms Due to these challenges, I am having trouble communicating day to day. Those of you reaching out to see me, I really want to make that happen so please keep trying through e-mail or text.  If I don't respond, it is only because I am at a medical appointment or challenged to get to my phone.  At one time we had discussed creating a schedule to rotate friends to either come sit with me during the day or take a night shift to help me take medicine.  Although that need is not immediate, it could change very soon.  Please start to think about whether you would like to be placed on a daytime or nighttime list.  You are always welcome to contact me through e-mail at theinnerhouse@gmail.com and texting to my cell 760.707.7610.  Theresa has also offered for you to text her at 760.814.5189 to help make more detailed arrangements if necessary.

It looks like the Pilates Reformer has been sold, however Pilates, Yoga and fitness equipment are still for sale.  Most are brand new and some are used. 

Always sending love . . . 
Summer

managing at home

It feels fantastic to be home...feeling a bit weak...but so happy to be home...Have a beautiful day ...will be in touch soon...

Urgent Recent Update

Sorry about the delay...currently in a Hospice facility due to severe complications that happened last Thursday and Friday.  Was unable to manage at home and was brought to Parkview home through the hospice care.  Symptoms included uncontrollable vomiting and stomach cramps and was unable to keep the medications down to help.  I have since been put on an IV dilaudid (narcotics) pump which has helped stabilize the pain and vomiting.  This facility does not have internet access which has prevented me from being able to communicate, but today a friend brought a wireless card so we could make this connection. There is so much I want to say but will have more information in the next few days as to where I am going to be and how I am going to continue with a particular treatment.  The goal is to be able to come home with the pump by Wednesday afternoon and if that's possible, I will then be able to communicate through my computer at home.  I am open to text messages and e-mails that I can reach through my phone (760-707-7610 and theinnerhouse@gmail.com).  I have come to learn that things can change at any moment and so everything I am hoping to happen could also change - especially being able to come home.  Depending on how long I am here, I may be open to having visitors and will be able to let you know as I know more.  Please feel free to contact me through text or e-mail, as it means a lot to me to know you are there.  I won't be able to read my blog until I am able to get internet again, so instead of responding to the blog, make sure you respond with e-mail otherwise I won't see it.  Please just stay in the moment with me, supporting me with love and courage so that I can get home and be where I am most comfortable.  Don't forget to stay connected to http://www.summershope.com/ regarding current fundraisers.  If you prefer to have my address, please e-mail.

I love you.
Summer