What a day...
I had treatments done very early...back to back to back to back without any time in between...then I went with the driver Jesus and a patient and his daughter into downtown Tijuana/ Revolution main tourist area...I had been there before ...many many years ago...I didn't go to go there...I went for a change of scenery...the company was wonderful...Richard has brain cancer and went for an experimental surgery that was supposed to be 100% no big deal and he is now paralyzed...so he has brain cancer and is paralyzed...I am so lucky to be given what I've been given....the challenges we face can always intensify...he is a very positive person ...his daughter 27 years old is here with him as a kind and loving caregiver....daily... I witness a level of love and kindness that makes me only hope I can show up at least a 10th in that way...it's been amazing to be around them...
Jesus is a father and grandfather and lives fairly close to the clinic in Playa Tijuana...he picked me up last Sunday and escorted me across the border...his job is many things...one of them ...is picking patients up and taking them wherever and whenever they want and need to go...his other jobs are many ...he not only shows up to do his job well...he is the kindest man I have ever met...today was the most incredible opportunity ...it wasn't about going to Revolution Ave in Tijuana which was not appealing to me ...today was about my opportunity to witness pure patience...pure compassion...pure kindness...he helped Richard in his wheelchair...when Richard needed to go to the bathroom...Jesus helped him in the kindest way...when Richard missed the bathroom and wet himself...Jesus cared for him...when Richard had to pee again in a cup on the street...Jesus said it's ok Richard...if you shut your eyes no one will be able to see you...when Richard showed sad eyes...Jesus hugged him and patted him tenderly...I wept several times today...I wept because I feel so lucky to witness true tenderness...compassion...kindness and love...I am forever changed by being here...I not only came to the right place for my healing...I came to the only place...if love and kindness heals...I am healed...
I do Tonglen meditation daily for the injured dogs who howl on the street every night and day...whose sad eyes make me weep for the lack of kindness in the world...I weep for these animals that have no food ...no love...no caring...I don't know what to do with this...so I do Tonglen ...I do Tonglen for the animals
(dogs) I do Tonglen for the people who abandon these animals... every night I hear them screaming for food...screaming from the painful wounds left infected and oozing ...what an experience I'm having...For those of you who don't know what Tonglen is ...it's basically a loving kindness wish.. a breathing in the texture of pain and suffering no matter what it is and breathing out it's solution...light...etc...and it's so much more...wishing for all beings...including animals and every creature to have happiness...
Another touching moment was when we were walking down the streets of Tijuana...tiring of all of the desperate pleas to come into my store...please please senora I won't rip you off as much as the next guy...hee hee ...he really said this and then this warm young man who also has a store asked me where I was from and he said to me...when you go back home...tell them we are good and kind here...that it's safe here...tell them ok??? Tell them that they can come back...ok ...will you do this? I said yes...and I wept again...
What a day...
love to all
Wow. I have no words. I can feel what you experienced through your words... incredible. I love you.
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